I AM IN LOVE WITH THE WILD THINGS (exposing it all…)
I am desperately smitten with all things wild. I am completely and utterly addicted to the things that make me feel ALIVE.. FINALLY.
For so long I was addicted to trying to breathe through a burning in my chest.
I didn’t dare close my eyes… for fear I’d miss the comet.
I kicked and kicked and fluttered to stay afloat in my life.
I woke up every single day hell-bent on trying to figure out how to get THERE.
I just needed to know everything was ok.. no train was coming… the sky wasn’t falling…the people I loved were all ok, actually ok.
I didn’t realize that this had shifted until I started dating. It appears I hadn’t applied my WILD THINGS ability to this area… but.. I HAD TO SO MANY OTHERS.
I enjoy every stage my business goes through. It’s like a baby that learned to walk real fast.. with moments of sprinting while I’m sitting back watching like “holy sh**” .. This 1-year-old is sprinting like a college champ.
I enjoy every age of my kids, my personal growth.. I am enamored at how fast I can change and grow – how fast I can learn new skills and implement them.
But.. often times you don’t realize how far you have come until you are in an unexpected moment of reflection.
I LOVE THE UNEXPECTED MOMENTS OF REFLECTION.
Dating turns out to be one of these… I LIVE IN THE MOMENT really well.
I enjoy the wild, I jump off the cliffs…
I release the what if, side step drama, and have fantastic boundaries.
I do wild, crazy, brave shit and giggle, cry, celebrate, freak out, and keep going enjoying every single emotion and moment.
Then all of a sudden this new area of life opened up.. there I was facing dating.
And I will let you guess which area of me came out as I stumble my way through this lol.
Ya – the unseasoned – not living in the moment me. Needing to make sure I am safe needing to make sure they are safe. The, don’t dare close my eyes or I’ll miss the comet feeling.
I felt like I needed validation.
I needed to know I was enough for a serious relationship but didn’t want a serious relationship right out the gate.
I was “confused” (which y’all know by now unless you are new to me.. is NOT A REAL THING)
So if I was wanting to date, wanting to feel like I was the one they would pick for a serious relationship – but I was not available for a serious thing right away… I knew I needed to rebalance… that’s a situation where confusion is ALLOWABLE yes?
Socially acceptable yes?
Yes – FUCK socially acceptable.
Look what was really happening.
I was not wanting to feel the tension of the feeling I was flooded with on the journey. I wasn’t confused.
The part of me that needs to know everything is ok, no one is going to get hurt and feeling like something bad is going to happen came out.
Of course it came out.. this was a brand new door opened.
All I needed to do was remember that I LOVE THE WILD THINGS.. and for damn sure, the dating feelings and moments is WILD THINGS.
I LOVE just enjoying life, and enjoying the moment.
I love not controlling it and just following what feels good and walking away from what feels bad.
I just hadn’t learned to apply this skill, this level of freedom to this area… and naturally had a million emotions flooding at me and I DIDN’T LIKE THAT so I chose a story that I was confused.. rather than own my feelings and let them be what they are.
Which would look like what.. “Well, I’m going to need you to tell me you choose me for a serious relationship, while knowing you can’t have me that way yet.” LOL lol lol
(I watch all y’all doing this exact same crazy shit with all the pieces of your business – IT’S THE SAME BEHAVIOR)
Watch again… “Well, I want to uplevel the shit out of my business and work with high-end clients but then what, remarket my whole business? What about x y and z that I don’t do perfect yet.”
So what was my work? It was to process the emotions, the flood of “GAH!! have to make sure no one is going to get hurt!” and “But why are you ok with just dating, am I not enough?” and the tension of not knowing, the decisions about what I am available for sexually, the weirdness of talking to more than one guy as I step into this world.
Owning things like.. I can’t do casual sex. It’s not me. It’s not who I am, and that is what it is.
Owning things like I am messy at this and letting that be ok for now as I remember who the fk I am now and letting that apply to this.
You are enough.
You are the mother fucking prize and people are so lucky to be in your aura.
You are SAFE to just enjoy the wild, to enjoy the moment, to enjoy life.
Your work is to accept what is and FEEL what you are scared to feel. WHO YOU ARE TODAY is enough. It’s exactly perfectly where you are meant to be.
This is the only way to truly grow into who you envision yourself to be. I feel called to a season of just enjoying dating and feeling blessed to meet some pretty incredible people. It’s wildly unfamiliar and I get to enjoy and chuckle at myself watching me try to restabilize as MANDY FKG PERRY in this new arena.
Like a baby calf finding her legs.
There is no need for judgement.
I get to call in a man who is patient, gentle, and light-hearted about it because that’s what I deserve and that is my standard.
My standard doesn’t change because I am wobbly.
It will take me 4 seconds to catch on and shift and be the true me in this area too.
What if you could start to view your challenges this way today?
What if they are a fun adventure and you get to watch yourself without judgement and just keep pointing yourself towards the goal.
Your goal is ACCEPTABLE – you have permission to want what you want.
Your longings MATTER and deserve to be met – this is the standard.
Your FEELINGS are intense and that’s ok… so we build the INTENSE skill of processing emotions, releasing, strengthening and getting our ass back in the arena.
Being wobbly isn’t embarrassing… its BRAVE AS FUCK.
It’s the best of the best in this world.
The rest of them are doing nothing. Nothing new, no new doors opening, no strengthening, no growing, no WILD.
NO FUCKING WILD? #unavailableforthat
WILD IT IS.
WILLLDDDDD IT ISSSSSSS ❤ ❤ ❤
I WILDLY love your ass ?
PS: I CHANGED MY MINDDDD
New program is open ??❤️????
WILD AT HEART
For the truly good people, ready to stop playing small, finally embrace their wild, & live life lit the fk up!
You weren’t meant to be a puzzle piece forced to fit in.
Each day waking up faced with expectations, rules, and more ways you have to show up and be more than who you are just to feel safe.
Each day another little pill to swallow.
Each day bending just a little more to chase the dollar, the fitness, the glory.. never truly owning what would make YOU truly happy.
IT’S THE TRULY GOOD PEOPLE THAT STRUGGLE WITH THIS THE MOST!
What would make you feel lit the fuck up every single day of your life?
Are you truly living?
Are you truly deciding?
Are you truly happy?
Are you ENJOYING EVERY SECOND OF LIFE?
Do you have fun?
Do you feel satisfied?
You aren’t meant to feel like something is missing.
You aren’t meant to be afraid something bad is going to happen when you DO WHAT YOU WANT.
You are meant to thrive and the feeling that something bad is going to happen is a BAD HABIT born out of some rules that need to change.
It’s like living life with the devil sitting on your shoulder.
There is SOMETHING MORE.
There is FREEDOM, EXCITEMENT and HAPPINESS.
It is 100% possible for you to live every single day truly lit the fk up and happy.
There are some things you will need to understand and for sure some energy you will have to be around to shift this.
I am doing 5 days of intense diving into the WILD.
Learning how to let it go, surrender, release emotions, and get the reward of the strength on the other side.
AS you learn this process you will begin to watch yourself expand and grow into a person who can take the hits and GENUINELY still be happy and enjoying life.
People are shocked at how I was able to handle how fast my business grew, family emergencies, rejection in business, divorce, single motherhood, old trauma and wounds coming up..
Going from a single mom on welfare making $400 a week to business in track for 7 figures in 3 years is one hell of a journey .. and really..
WHAT IS THE POINT IF I DON’T ENJOY IT!
This is and was always about you becoming the person who is enjoying the SHIT OUT OF LIFE.
If you are not waking up every day excited to the core about your life.. this is for you.
This is about
– Learning to feel safe having what you want
– Learning boundaries
– Learning to feel safe DOING YOUR OWN THING
– Recognizing what shit is stuck to you that never belonged there
– Learning what rules you have allowed to slip in
– Spitting out the pills you take to numb yourself because you can’t be what the world says you need to be
– Processing and releasing all the trapped emotions inside that keep building and controlling you
– Changing the energetic STANDARD YOU HAVE and raising the mother fkg BAR
– Learning BRAVERY. Being brave enough to make moves that BACK YOURSELF and your dreams
I have the life of my dreams
I am lit the fk up EVERY SINGLE DAY
I feel truly free and worthy to have all I ever long for or desire
I know how to get clear what I want and have the bravery to go for it.
This is all learnable.
I didn’t know how to 3 years ago.
The results from this are epic.
EVERY DAY OF YOUR LIFE YOU GET TO FEEL EXCITED< SAFE< LIT UP < EXPANSIVE < AND FREE AF.
Not one day a week
Not 2 days a month
You get to do CRAZY WILD epic things and feel excited doing them
No crippling fear
No being taken advantage of
No confusion – fk confusion
No more swallowing the pill
No bending over and taking it in the arse
No having to protect the whole world from danger
No repeat failure of same things
No anxiety, anger, resentment
No playing small
No holding back
Today you can decide you’re waging a war against something that truly matters…
Today you can say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.
Today you can DECIDE YOU GET TO BE REALLY TRULY HAPPY.
Today you get to say FK the rules and FK those pills.
Today you get to stop playing into others fears and smallness and EXPAND into the person you envision in your mind.
Today you get to say yes TO BEING WILD AT HEART.
Mother fucking WILD
Excitement , awe, wonder
Sense of KNOWING
The work is the work.
The savvy move is to recognize the work needs to be done and jump in.
WILD AT HEART
5 days of life changing work to embrace your true potential and LIVE LIT THE FK UP.